Famliy

We have had to move recently (joy).  The decision was hasty, the move was stressful, and the reason was unfounded.  It's all an incredibly long story which I won't bore you with; I just wanted to express my thankfulness to my family who helped us along this ambiguous journey. 

We were renting a house in Acworth that wasn't exactly perfect, but we made it our own.  We spent a lot of time and money to make our family comfortable there and now we are in a place that is not our own, nor will it ever be.  I genuinely enjoy decorating and now I am in a position where I can't even rearrange furniture...I know that may sound insignificant to some, but to me it's been very stressful and sad for me. 

I feel like a bad mother because my son's room isn't painted a fun color and that the living room doesn't have our beautiful family pictures hanging up.  I also feel like a bad mom because through this move, I haven't spent as much time nurturing and teaching my son.  We used to read multiple books and learn a new word/sound everyday!  Now I struggle to read him one book a day because I'm too busy worrying about packing and unpacking and paying bills and so on.  I have been making more of an effort to turn off the TV and get down and play with him.  I need to do a better job.  He is everything to my husband and me and that's really all that matters. 

We should be happy that there is a roof over our heads and food on the table.  So what if the money in our checking account isn't as "happy" as it used to be (I had to quit my part time job in order to move).  Even if we don't have as much, at least we have each other - doesn't that sound like a line in a crappy movie! Now is the time to focus on building ourselves up again and becoming the strong family we were made to be.  I can't let anything/anyone stand in my way of enjoying life.  This is a time for readying myself for the next 'chapeter'.   What is the next chapter?  I don't know! 

It seems that each year some thing significant happens - getting a new job, meeting Jamie, getting pregnant, getting married, quitting my job, having a baby.  Oh wait, all of that happened in ONE YEAR.  What was the reasoning behind all of this?  That was the prequel to my new life as a full time mom.  Oh well, now a slough of things have happened to change our lives completely again.  At least I have a loving husband and adorable son who stand by me daily.  I will continue to do the things I love - writing, running, and cooking. 

Currently, our son is in a preschool for a few hours a week so I will have more time to write.  I am hoping that maybe one day I can just write articles for a magazine/newspaper and still be able to be a stay at home mom.  Of course, the way that my life goes - that dream may be untouchable!